So I’m sitting here on the 2nd of January unsure of what to start writing about.
I’ve only made 5 posts on this blog this year.
The longer I leave it between posts the more difficult it is to start a new one.
But that’s ok. This is where I’m at. This is 2018.
Honestly when I think back on this year, I’m filled with gratitude and happiness.
I’ve continuously worked my ass off at a job that I love. It’s developed into such a rewarding passion. I’ve learned so much from it and it has brought me on some crazy adventures around this beautiful Island I call home.
It’s given me the freedom to do things outside of work that also bring me happiness.
Good quality time. Adventures abroad and at home. Festivals. National Parks. Drunken nights expressing my love to my friends. Sober nights laughing my face off.
So it’s brought me to this one particular thing that I feel 2017 has been all about for me.
Balancing work and play. Balancing healthy eating with not so healthy eating. Nights in and nights out. The ups and downs of mental health. A learning curve.
Life is so unpredictable no matter how much you try to think that it isn’t. Things change so consistently.
When I was younger, having a bit of a battle with anxiety and mental health, as so many of us do, change seemed like a really scary thing. Trying to take control of certain aspects of my life always appeared to give me comfort. It’s now that I realise that isn’t true – attempting to control things, that are truly out of your control, usually just leads to you feeling worse.
I’m aware that’s a super vague way of putting it, but I hope that at least some of you get where I’m coming from.
Change is inevitable. And so much is out of our control.
All that we truly have control over is our own thoughts, our own feelings, and whether or not we choose to be happy.
If ever someone told me years ago that you could just choose to be happy, I’d call them out on that bullshit. As if it was that easy.
It’s not that easy. It’s hard work. But I believe most of us still can.
And now I’m this person. I’ve chosen to be happy and I am.
I’ve chosen to try my best to take things in my stride, to maintain a healthy balance with whatever I do. Feeling comfortable with myself.
2017 was super fun. While maintaining a balance with things that I love, like yoga, hikes and some good laughs, I also tried new things that made me step out of my comfort zone. Things that made me feel a bit uncomfortable at first, vulnerable and unknown. Opportunities for growth. I truly feel like I’ve understood how important having a healthy balance is to your mental health.
I’m going into 2018 happy and excited for a new chapter. I hope that you are too, and that you know you deserve to feel the same.
I talk about this every year because it’s something that always leaves a lasting impact on me: a month of daily yoga in January with Adriene Mishler. You’ll be sick of me mentioning this lady – but tune in to her youtube channel for a new practise every day for the month of January. The series is called ‘True’ this year. It’s real damn good so far.
Getting older has been a truly beautiful thing for me, keeping it real and being honest with myself every step of the way has been what’s helped me to stay balanced within myself.
Still on that self-love train. Still accepting the ups and downs. Still giving all the love.
I wish you all the best for 2018.
I’d typically write a little note here on when you’ll hear from me next, but let’s be honest, cut the bullshit and keep it real, neither of us know when that’s gonna happen. I only write when I feel the urge to, which clearly is not that often! All the same, I want to say thank you to anyone who took the time to read the rambles this year.
Love & Light to you beautiful people,