I’m not even sure how to start this! I’ve been in a blogging drought since May and I feel like I need to explain myself. However that’s very hard when it’s difficult to pin point exactly how you’re feeling.
So for ages I haven’t been happy with how the blog was going, how I was putting in that work, what I was writing about etc. I wanted to keep things more personal, more real, more relatable… and less about products and material things. But when you want to make that kind of change, you have to have feelings or experiences to write about. My best posts were written when I was going through a big change in my life, and those sorts of big changes don’t come around often. So then I feel this pressure to feel, to be different and to learn, but you can’t force that kind of thing. On top of that I am currently unemployed and looking for work, so as much as I love blogging I really have to give 95% percent of my time into changing that. I’m letting y’all know this because things are hopefully going to be different from now on.
I don’t want my posts to be as long or as intricate because even though I push myself to keep a high standard of content, it stops me from being consistent. It becomes this big thing in my mind and the pressure I put on myself scares me out of just completing it. So I want my posts to be shorter, more concise, more direct. And on any topic I’m thinking about that week or whatever is relevant to my experiences at that time.
I want to feel more connected to whoever reads my blog, I want to have good conversations and interactions, so please feel free to tweet me or comment on my instagram and we can start to feel more together.
The photos taken for this post were in Bray, Co. Wicklow, Ireland – on a much needed trip recently to clear my head.
I love you all so much and thanks to anyone who takes time out of their day to read anything here,
Love and light,
UPDATE : So I wrote this post two days ago intending to post it today. As of two days ago, I NOW HAVE A JOB! A job I have wanted for a really long time and I am so excited to start. I wanted to include this, because it’s funny how just as I write about it something changes. That’s just life though isn’t it! Love to all you gorgeous people!!
So I have arrived in Turkey! After the stress of finishing college and doing exams, going on a holiday has never come at such a perfect time. De-stressing and evaulating the frame of mind I am in are my main goals for this trip. Lying in the sun, swimming, and continuing my yoga practice along with the odd meditation session are the activities I plan to incorporate into most of my days here. The second I stepped off that plane and landed on turkish soil I felt a weight lifted. For me, nothing clears my head more than experiencing a different environment from that which I’ve been living in, for what seems like forever. It forces you to take a step back and view how your life has been going recently and thus, have a critical view of your state of happiness. I have been here for 3 days now and not much has happened, which I consider a good thing seeing how we all feel like life has to be constantly busy in order to achieve and progress. I’ve been lying in the sun getting a tan and swimming, without venturing outside the hotel for too long. I did a short and sweet yoga class this morning and it was so beautiful in the morning sun, something I feel I’ll be doing every day! Being content in doing nothing has been a hard thing for me to accept after being so busy for the last 4 years of college. Living in the now, taking in every present moment has been and is still a large lesson for me to learn. Right now I am drinking a cold beer and listening to the mosque calls to prayer, thoroughly enjoying the different experiences and reflecting on my life so far. I am overwhelmed by the beauty of this country, it’s people and the relaxed way of life, reminiscing back to a time when I first visited about 10 years ago when I was too young to understand the history and to appreciate it’s unique culture.
Using this time to post as much as possible was a big goal of mine before I left Ireland, however looking back now I crave the relaxation associated with no deadlines and pressures. Saying that, this blog is just a breath of fresh air for me because the pressure I have is only there because I decide it is. We can all strive to be better, but we also have to be patient.
On another note, I’ve been reading a fantastic book that I’d like to share with everyone! It’s called ‘Don’t sweat the small stuff….and it’s all small stuff’ by Richard Carlson and for someone who suffers every single day with anxiety, it’s benefitted me more than I could have imagined. Everyone can learn something from this so I’d advise you pick up a copy 😉 Thanks for taking the time out of your day to read this post.
Love and light always,