I know I’m late.
But how late is too late?
2017. Wait… 2016.
Let’s talk about 2016.
2016 was one of the hardest and best years of my life thus far. Let’s start from the beginning.
January was filled with #yogacamp by the wonderful Adriene Mishler – see my post about it here. I learned self-love, confidence, trusting in myself. It changed me.
February I started to step out of my comfort zone. I went on dates. I kept up the fitness – LWRHIITIN4. My body changed dramatically.
I bought my first car and got insured. I started to drive and tasted that freedom for the first time.
I became closer to female friends, lost some, gained some. I felt I only truly started to understand the beauty of women and all that we are.
I agreed to do my first photo-shoot for a hair salon. I didn’t know what I was getting into. I took the leap, I couldn’t believe I did it. I let the hairstylist do what she wanted to my hair. I felt such empowerment and freedom from this experience (I wasn’t thrilled with the new look … but hey that was part of the process!)
I saw Beyoncé in June. Formation World Tour. BEYONCÉ. What?! B.E.Y.O.N.C.É. That night legit changed my life. So much happiness, so much strength. So. Much. Love.
I passed my driving test first time.
I spent the sunny Irish summer (max. 3 weeks… maybe…) lying in my back garden, mostly naked, listening to music and reading books. All day everyday for those 3 weeks. I enjoyed this time with myself so much and will never forget it.
I got a job. I got the job. I got a job that I always wanted. I cried with happiness, I welcomed the challenge. I still love it.
I stayed vegan all this year. I don’t think I will ever go back. It gives me such gratitude and respect for all living things.
I overcame so many mental issues. So many downfalls, tears, difficulty… within myself. I worked through it. I had the strength and drive to want better for myself. I can’t say I solved everything ….there is always work to be done (Do you ever really ‘get there’?). But I achieved so much and have come so far. I am not even close to the person I was this time last year. I learned to love myself. I learned to give love.
This year tho.
This gon’ be my year tho.
Let’s just list out some things/thoughts for 2017, cause that’s what people do, right?
I want to explore my creativity, fully, now that I have recognised how much joy it gives me. And to explore that through many different outlets. Write more on the blog, pull back on the perfectionism … you’re just writing about you and the things that you love.
I want to continuously remind myself to take responsibility for my own happiness.
I want to continue to practise yoga, daily, because I know how good it makes me feel.
I want to get fitter and push the boundaries of that, but with ease and awareness.
I want to continue to challenge myself in my work, and push myself to learn and succeed.
I want to love more. I know that I have the capacity and it is in my nature, but past hurt has made me wary, less giving. I want to let go of that fear, and I want to give love to the people in my life that matter so much to me. *Don’t cry*
I want to laugh more and stop being so god damn serious (if you read my blog you will totally get this!)
I want to travel more and see more of the world, and through this learn more about myself.
Finally, something I’ve really been working on and getting somewhere with, is to apologise less. Stop apologising. You are who you are. You know who you are. You love who you are.
A lot of negative things happened in 2016. A lot of sad things, scary things. Things I never imagined would happen, and things I am not going to comment on or discuss here. All I will say is, keep your focus on love. Love will conquer, and there is always love to be found if you look hard enough.
Happy New Year.
Feel free to comment… to discuss things you’ve overcome in 2016, goals you have for the new year, or just to have a chat, please do so down below… or tweet me @amylauren_b
Thank you so much to everyone who has read my blog over the past year, it means a lot more to me than you might think! I wish you all the best for the year ahead.
So. Much. Love.
P.s. First full moon of 2017 last night. I’m relishing in it, and viewing it as the ‘real’ New Year. Celebrate. Be present. Enjoy!